Dare I Say

A conduit that connects, this intimacy
now runs dry.
I'm not so sure
this soul-cleansing channel
that builds and binds
can be open for business anymore.

No.

The stream once riveted toward longing
and sacred desire...
Dare I say...
has long been dried
for quite some time
and only now I perceive it so.

Stop staring into my shame-filled
eyes.
They dry up from crying
and I am...
Dare I say...
enraged.

Contempt has long been my
secret savor and power
to defeat shame or...
Dare I say...
to simply self-medicate.

I am only at the onset of
this scary surprise.
Perhaps I have...
Dare I say...
Some healing yet to happen.

Painful to be sure.

I will walk through this flame...
Dare I say...
In the heat of your gaze.
I will not look away.

Sear through my sin with the
clean light of your holy eyes
my Lord.

I promise I will allow
your sight to
pierce mine.

Dare I say...
I will not look away.